I stopped believing in myself

Gotta learn not to always let the bad shit bring me down. Even though that's all I've been getting lately is bad news.Things have to look up soon don't they? Been so stressed out and depressed because of it surprised that I haven't had a bad break down yet. It's even tougher when no one gives a damn about you.Really an outcast amongst everyone and kinda the suffer in silence type. Hate being stuck in a rut with no possible way out. Can you start a midlife crisses in your early 20's?